The last 3 days have been fairly good days for me. I have had the constant little devil named anxiety on my shoulder but he has been little, manageable. It think it has a lot to do with the awesome sleepovers I have had at Koby's parents' house. :) I have been camping out at their house at night, taking care of Maren/ sleeping until 4 am, then handing her over to Koby's amazing mother to tended while I sleep as long as possible (until somewhere between 8-9am). It has been a huge blessing. It is amazing how sleep can help you feel better. I'm so blessed to have wonderful in-laws who are so giving and loving.
My mom has also been amazing in coming over to help me at anytime during the day. She is usually here for the mornings and afternoons. We decided to make dinner together since she still has to feed my brothers and dad at home and it makes it easier to feed my family. We have been slowly cleaning the house as well. My room is no longer a disaster but is comfortable to be in now. Next major thing is my bathroom. Yikes!
I think I have decided Maren has her days and nights mixed up. She sleeps like a champ from early morning to early evening. It is SO hard to wake her and she sleeps long hours. I am trying to break this habit. At nights she "sleeps", but not soundly. She also has a lot of gas and hasn't been pooing regularly. Is there such a thing as morning colic? I tried Gripe Water last night but she still didn't sleep wonderfully. I really don't want to complain though because she isn't up crying and screaming. THAT would be hard. We are just trying to figure out the logistics of this new world for her. She is very sweet and a very mild tempered little girl so far. She is starting to even get some chub on her cheeks. She will let out a little laugh or smile in her sleep.
The kids are still adjusting. I think this has all thrown Kallie into the terrible twos. She is a lot more emotional and temperamental. She clings to me all the time and wants my attention. She also throws some killer temper tantrums and fights with Brigg.
Brigg loves Maren to death and has been very helpful but he also acts out more than normal and becomes very disobedient at times. Last Sunday was the first time he stayed in his Sunbeams class for half of it without a parent.
This may sound crazy (I feel completely crazy at times) but I have already been out running 3 times. I started the day before Maren was 2 weeks old. It felt SO good to get our and run for awhile. I almost didn't want to stop but I knew I was already pushing my postpartum body. I still go out walking faithfully every night. It is my therapy. I am hoping to join a yoga class since I don't think I will do it on my own. I figure I am doing all I can to help myself get better, I just need time for all the hormones to level out a bit. The hardest part is the battle with my mind and thoughts.
Yeah, Mom is a lifesaver isn't she? When I had Caden it was so nice to have her close! I wish I was close by to exercise with you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that you've been able to get a release (running and walking). I think that is so important. Have you tried Hyland's colic tabs? I haven't ever tried them (just the teething tabs and cough syrup) but I am a big fan of Hyland's products, and they're homeopathic.
ReplyDeleteI'm so impressed that you're able to do this. GIVE YOURSELF TIME. I found that if I set a (somewhat ridiculously) low expectation, I was more likely to be pleased with the outcome, or even surprised because I exceeded my (low) expectation. Like with two kids, I gave myself until 4 months before I anticipated coming out of "the fog." When I came out at two-ish months, I felt like I had overcome the odds. Maybe give yourself six months or a year. I might just give myself five years when I have my third. :)
YOU ROCK. I'm so glad that your family has been so awesome!! THANK YOU ANDERSEN/STOTT FAMILY FOR TAKING CARE OF MY FAVORITE SLISHER MALISHER!!!